A Long December

I haven't been feeling like myself lately. I'm honestly not quite sure what's going on. And I can't quite pinpoint what's different. I just feel, I don't know, off. I'm so tired all of the time, and my moods have been awful. I'm totally sweating the small stuff, and I'm having a hard time articulating myself. It's kind of like I'm in a fog. And the weird thing is, I'm taking better care of myself than ever. I work out a lot. I eat healthy. I drink lots of water and get lots of sleep. If anything, I should be feeling incredible. Instead, I'm all blah.

Maybe it's just the pre-Christmas blues. I realized the other day that all of my favorite Christmas songs are the really sad ones. (Side note: Isn 't it odd how many sad holiday songs there really are? For the most wonderful time of the year, a lot of folks seem to be feeling pretty crappy.) For the past few years, and this year as well, Tim and I have spent Christmas in Seattle. I am always happy that we make this decision - it's so much less stressful to go home in January or February, after the chaos is over. But even though I'm happy, I know that on the day, I will be blue. So am I just gearing up for the sadness of being away from MI that I know is coming? Am I just tired of the cold? Am I just in a funk, a rut?

I've got no answers here. I'm not sure what else I can do. Stay positive. Get more Vitamin C. Talk to family and friends more often. Take advantage of what the city has to offer. Challenge myself in new ways. Try some new things. Finally go to yoga. Yes. Okay. Point taken.